Emotional Uncertainty

This weekend is my wife's birthday. She passed on September 10, 2016, due to complications from kidney disease, and the subsequent months have been turbulent for me, to say the least. I quit my job, struggled with depression, lost friends, and questioned myself constantly. 10 years of life together, brought to an end... what do you do when your life is stripped out from under you? I don't really have an answer because I've just been improvising. Every decision I make feels like it's on the fly, and that's been harrowing. It's taken months to feel like I have any direction at all, but I believe I'm, at last, retrieving the reins. First, I've made arrangements to return to school this fall. Thanks to the loving support of my family, I have an opportunity to improve myself in a huge way and I couldn't be more excited. Second, I've gotten involved with a lovely woman. She's been incredibly kind and patient with me, as well as surprisingly insightful, so I count myself very lucky to have met her. Finally, this site and podcast has been instrumental in my recovery. It's given me tons to learn, and taken a lot of practice. I'm so anxious to finally be releasing our project to the public! I can't wait to hear what people have to say about it (though to think that it'll be successful or wide spread is quite far-fetched, but who knows?). I'm looking forward to writing here regularly as well as posting the weekly podcasts. At any rate, I think that'll do... quite the tonal shift from how I opened this. Hm. 

-Dane B.